NOT
  your 3 a.m. boy
NOT
  your steadfast (when
   others leave)
NOT
  your last resort
NOT
  your drive home
I WANT
   I WANT
      I WANT
        to be your
           LOVER
 (not your friend)

ONE MORE
  time woken for a ride
ONE MORE
  bar I was not at
ONE MORE
  awkward date
ONE MORE
  blunted time
ONE MORE
  time forgotten
ONE MORE
  carpet I am
    NOT
SHOULD I
  SHOULD I
    SHOULD I
      call her now?
SHOULD I
  SHOULD I
    SHOULD I
      take back my
        gentle
          put-her-off
SHOULD I
  SHOULD I
    SHOULD I
      scream and shout
SHOULD I
  SHOULD I
    SHOULD I
       remember...

that I love her?
  or told her so
    at least
just before
  putting down
    the phone

TOMORROW
  WILL I
    grab my balls
      tell the truth?

WILL I
  wake her
WILL I
  wake her
WILL SHE
   care?

NOT WISE
    TO ARGUE WITH A BLIND MAN
NOT WISE
    TO DEBATE WITH A DRUNK
NOT FAR
    BEFORE this thing is over
CAN I
  CAN I
    CAN I
       hold on?

I MISS HER
   I LOVE HER
      WHY
         WHY
             WHY!!!
won't she listen to me?

WHY
    WHY
           WHY!!
won't she love me?

WHY
    WHY
           WHY
am I
  am I
    am I...

                                          -- CSA, 05-may-2002. 2:51am.